chocolate

my heart broken after cadbury was found not halal and i'm been traumatized to eat it even if there are found innocent lately,but now i found new brand of chocolate if im craving it....its kitkat(the ambassador is zizan razak),its completely yummy and i found that i'd this kind of attitude where when i ate it, i'm gonna separating between the cookies and the chocolate where im ate the cookies first,and when i'm craved the chocolate i'll eat it in different time,funny isn't

employer

being an employee is so tiring...every time after coming back home...i found that i don't get enough sleep so im begging my mom to not disturbed me while im sleeping.......and when im awake i could fel my whole body is fully recharge.......i guess i becomed an old lady now..although my age only 17.....ops its 18

ideal type

few days ago,i visited my lovely-cutie grandma at my aunt house...as usually,both of us talked and i completely become very clingy granddaughter*because i miss her so much,as our talk got deeper,suddenly my grandma changing the subject...
guess what.. suddenly she talked about my ideal man,she has counseled me that i shouldn't going out with other men,when i had someone,then she also told me to find really good person with good personality,and the most thing i'll remember is to find people whose salary is large and has a good working...well it's a good advice after all haha

being a teacher

be a teacher is a tough job,now i can see why almost all of my teacher,suddenly angry or suddenly tired to teach us...
its absolutely because their mind is been blocked to make us understand that topic ... it's actually happen to me when i teach my youngest brother about mathematics subjects ,
i lost my word when he asked me some question and  actually make me loss my word,
since i'm a hot tempered person i easily mad at him hahaha ...so i talk to myself,that been a teacher is not for me because it required a lot of patience,kindness,and tolerance,and i  even don't have one of the pure value....haha

2015

only few day left to reach 2015
as time ticking i'm think to myself...whats would happen in 2015
am i will have a new life which is 
become a new student level 
or am i just has a same life like i am now
or becoming a complete worker at town..
i'm so scared what would i do if i can't reach my ambitions
and yes my age will rise one more digit...*ugh i'm getting old now

hmm..wish me all the best 
fighting!!!!!